It's almost 5 am. Surprisingly, I'm still awake. Maybe it's just because I have nothing to do anyway the next day, so why bother sleeping early and waking up early when all I'm just gonna do is watch some tv series on my laptop and eat. That's it.

In a way, I think I'm wasting my holidays. This is not what I expected. I know should be doing something productive, if not productive, at least, go out and have fun before hell sets loose again next year. But eh, what to do. No one's asking me out and I can't go out without someone picking me up 'cause I don't like asking my dad to send me to places. I think it's a troublesome for him and well, I just don't want to hear him giving me lectures or whatever. So I'm hoping that it wouldn't be too late to have an amazing holiday. Just a few more weeks left.

I just realised recently that my English hasn't been improving. I'm an epic failure. I mean, I'm disappointed in myself. English was my best subject, but I just don't see it now. I'm reading other people's blogs and I've also been reading a book, and I hate myself for not being able to write or speak like them. Seeing these big words, high vocabulary, amazing structured sentence ... it's just making my confidence so low. And also, flashing back through my days in the EAS and ELit classes, at times, I had difficulties in writing the essays. Okay, yes, I'm typing in English right now, but I don't know. I feel like It's just not enough. I want to write beautifully and strike people in awe not just with my stories, also, with my vocabulary.

sigh, I'm just thinking too much, aren't I? Maybe, I'm just worried about my EAS and ELit results. Maybe.

I'm so unfit. I could just feel my weight going up and my body widening up. Haha, okay, I'm exaggerating. I am having one of those days though, where you just feel so bloated. Ever since there's no more rugby training, I've just been siting around. I wanna jog though, but unfortunately, my shoes is with Jay, and maybe I'm just making excuses, but I don't like jogging around my house. My weight goes up and down before this, 55-56-57. but now, it's stuck at 58. Oh man. I am gaining weight. I need to shed these kgs and try to get the weight that I've always wanted. 50. Well, just hope that I would get this, before or around next year. If not 50, maintaining the 50 plus number is alright for me. I just want this tummy to get flat a.s.a.p. I don't wanna be skinny, just healthy. I talked to dad to bring me jogging someday. Gonna make this holiday worth while! :)

Okay, it's already considered as morning, it's 5.08 now. I'm currently downloading season 2 of Parenthood and Modern Family. Hell yes! Seriously, it's an amazing family oriented tv show! Just a little preview for my readers! :)

If you're up for a comedy-drama show, go watch Parenthood.

I love all the dramas and crying at some of the scenes. lol. Parenthood is basically revolves around the Braverman family, that consists of three generations. The second generation, the four siblings, are all grown up and having children of their own. Adam, married and having a son that is diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome or also known as Autism. Sarah, the second eldest, suffers from a divorce and a trouble teenage daughter, Amber. Crosby, been living like a bachelor, receives a shocking news that he has a 5 year old son with a woman that he slept and did not tell him that she was pregnant. He finds a way reconnecting back with his son, Jabbar and eventually bonded with him. Julia however, the youngest of the siblings, is considered as the 'perfect' one with a job as a lawyer, having a stay-at-home husband and a daughter who is surprisingly intelligent for her age.

The series is filled with scenes involving comedy and drama, but also, it shows the love and relationship between a strong family and what families mostly these days are struggling on.

So I just love watching this series! crying and laughing at some of the scenes! :) and also Lauren Graham or known as Sarah, is in this show! I love her ever since I watched Gilmore Girls!

If you're up for a full on family-oriented comedy show. I recommend Modern Family.

Modern Family shows how most family are nowadays. It also revolves on one family. A dad or a grandfather, Jay, divorced and married to a younger woman that has a 10-year-old son. Jay, however has a daughter, Claire, who is married to man that thinks he is 'hip and cool' dad, Phil. Phil says incredibly funny lame jokes and words. They have three kids; two daughters, going through their teenage years and a son, that isn't basically smart. Jay also has a son, who is homosexual, Mitchell. He is living with his partner, Cameron. Cam is just hilarious and is over dramatic at times. These couple decided to adopt a daughter, Lily, during their stay at Vietnam.

This show let's you see the "modern" family and this show is just full on comedy which I'm sure, you'll watch it with non-stop laughter. Of course, there are some sweet, "aww" moment scenes that makes you just love this loving, funny family.

Cam, of course, is my favourite character! I just love his dramatic moments! He can be such a drama queen at times, which makes me laugh so hard!

So, I'm going to watch an Episode of Modern family, then sleep! Yes, it's really really late. Hey, it's already morning. Good morning then. Goodnight for me. :)