I'm back to being myself though. My happy-go-lucky-self because everything in my life is going pretty well though.

I enjoy my times with my friends and I'm glad to be closer with them each day. I have 2 more exam papers to go.

I'm finally, slowly, starting to get over him each day and it's just because, we're starting to be friends again, it might not be as close as before, we might not have fun, amazing and heart-beating conversation like we used to, but to know, I still can be friends with him and talk to him, makes my day. I guess, not talking to him, made me miss him, which leads me to not move on. But yes, I am slowly getting over him, that feeling might still be here, but it's getting tinier by the day.

I apologize to my friends for being so emo and down, it was just one of those days. When I'm thinking about a one particular problem, I ended up bringing in the other small matters in too and yeah, making a one huge problem. so yes, so sorry. ):

Okay, so, let's get back to the real topic here. Early in the morning, we had maths, and after half an hour through the lesson, my sir announced he's not going to teach us for upper six. It was a bummer though. But it was not really a bad thing. The pros of sir not teaching us anymore; is that, we would actually get some serious work because he usually just give us work and not mark them, although, i do understand my maths and maths will at the ground floor. The cons; having to adjust to a new teacher and there will be a HELL LOT of homeworks now. Such a bitch, I know. it was fun having him though, even if our class and him weren't that close, he is a really good teacher.

I hung out with them Syah, Zims, Rozie, Amal Shinju, Belle and Faiz in the canteen during break. Zims borrowed Shinju's cards, and we ended up playing 'bullshit' , 'speed' and 'big two'. Oh yes, I finally know how to play big two! After all these while of urging to know how to play. Thanks to Rozie! Zims was being perasan (i'm joking, zims) 'cause she won 2-3 games in a row. She was on a roll. I kept losing a few times, but in the end, i won 2 times, I even beat Shinju!

After that, I hung out with them Muein and Kippy, I disturbed them dating. After a few minutes of talking and stuff, we found out that talentine was rejected, due to the voting of only 3 teachers voted yes out of 12. It was a major slap on the face. This is not what I expect college life to be. I know it's better than this. Please don't ruin our youth ):

I approached si hitam manis, or what I like to call him, dark chocolate (lol), it was an inside joke, on my way back to friend's class. It was, like, a shine of heaven. Damn son, your smile is just, wuw. You are currently my number one eye-candy ;)

A few hours after I went home, NK messaged me to go online. He wanted me back. It was (#*@!&U#!(&$! for me. So now he misses me? So NOW, he realize how much he needed me in my life? what happened to before? why not during those time, I waited for you? I felt like saying;

But no, I don't treat people like that, I'm not that kind of person. No matter, how horrible that person has done to me (if it's like stealing or beating me up, that's a different story), I don't go, "FUCK YOU BITCH. GO TO HELL". I settle it in a good way, if he or she treats me roughly back, doesn't matter, it's their choice. The important thing is, I try to make it better, if it doesn't work, then I'll just let it be. I'm not gonna waste my time on things like that.

Anyway, I wasn't sad, or mad or happy when he wanted me back. I was like, emotionless. I have no feelings for him at all anymore. He was like a stranger to me. The things he did to me just covers up all the good memories we have. Every time I think of him, the one i remember first was how much he hurt me. 'cause I learnt how to do that when I was trying to move on from him. Remembering his bad side. But yes, No way in hell I'm going back to that road. No way in hell, I'm going to relive those moment. I forgive, but I never forget.

He begged me to go back with him, claiming, he'll treat me right, he learnt his mistakes. Okay, people do make mistakes, but doing it over and over again, you tend to lose that trust. The chances to give was finished. No more. I'm sorry, but I can't give you that chance anymore. You say you'll change, I know in my heart, you won't.

I do feel bad for hurting him, but, what he did to me was tens times worst than what I'm doing now. It was his own fault. Karma's a bitch, and he deserve to taste a little bit of that Karma.

Okay, it's a long post. sorry for blabbering out. I just needed this. But yes, I'm okay. Seriously :) I was emo for those few days, I need to be happy now :)

Might be going to Gadong to do Business project with Khadijah B. and Melini. Hopefully, if it's still on.

Well, I guess that's it. There's more on what happened today (or yesterday), but yeah, you'll get bored. :p

Goodnight.

p.s ; Happy Birthday Syahmi, you're one hell of a guy. Thank you for the days you've given me, thank you for the comfort you've brought to me. You're the best. I miss you, and be safe during your recruit. :) May Allah bless you. You're my jubss always. :) ♥