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posted : Saturday, February 13, 2010
title : Loner or popular?
Hello ♥
You know, so many things are going through my head right now. Especially my life in form 6. I'm not only thinking about the subjects that I'm taking. I've been thinking about how I will treat my friends. As some might know, I have a lot of my friends going to Katok and some of my current close friends are saying that I might not talk to them anymore or say hi to them when we're in school. But, I'm really not that kind of person. The main point is that, I'm just scared that my friends will say that I'm "ambung" (I don't know the translation in English) or something like that. I know I might not be able to give a 100% attention to each of them, 'cause if I do, the other person might say that I'm ambung. Though, I don't want to just say "Hi" whenever I passed by them, I want to stop and talk to that person and everything. . . . . Okay, I don't really know what I'm saying. But yeah, I fear that I might be turning into a loner. 'cause if each of them thinks that, I certainly turn into one. Of course, I'll try my best to be with each and one of them. it's not that just because I don't want to be called "ambung" or turn into a loner, it's 'cause I really don't want to lose them. I don't want to lose my best friends and such. sigh :/ Not only that, I'm scared that I might be not as close to them as before. -.- It just hurts me though, when they say that, I might not talk to them anymore 'cause I'll be having new friends. 'cause no matter how many new friends I have, I still stick to the old ones. sometimes even if I don't terlayan pun, it usually is not on purpose. It's either I might be busy or I just don't know what to say. eh entah eh, I think I'm speaking giberrish. But Yes, I'm scared of what people might think -.- Sigh, form 6 life might turn into hell. I think too much. p.s; @_@ form 6 life hasn't started and I'm already like this. |
